Bloody 2011 finish as quick as you can, one of the worst year of my life. Planned funeral of my father couple of times but he's still with us, cancer couldn't beat him and I'm pleased to have him around. The year which I took break from work for the first time in my life because of family problems. The year I could see all of the members of my family. The year that I had support of my family after I even don't remember from close by. The year I said back off to big guys at work and stood up against them and told them they SUCK as a human being and I'm not willing to become one of them. The year I didn't publish none-sense journal papers and left to the ones who really dependent on them and instead work on some totally different matters. The years I was congratulated with the most arrogant professors in Canada for changing the culture of one building. The year I spent time with my mother who doesn't remember my last 15 years and thinks I'm still her young daughter. The year that in worse situations with my sisters and brother could still laugh and give each other comfort. The year I survived my nightmares of going to funeral of my parents every night. The year I made new friends and made stronger friendship with some of my old friends. The year some of my old friends transforms to just familiar faces and I'm so sorry to admit it. The year I spent time in 4 different continents. The year I went through financial crises and only my family and couple of friends were and are around. The year I proved to myself once more I'm a survivor and will make it somehow and will never take any shit from anybody specially the ones in higher power. The year I've got surprised with support of some very unexpected people. The year I watched my dreams passing by my eyes without any thing I can do about it. The year I was fortunate enough to spend time with my nephews and niece. The year I could make myself smile even when the whole world was collapsing around me. The year I didn't feel wiser at all but I felt definitely stronger. oh well here I am still alive and around and can smile and laugh at all of the problems. Thanks to all who know who they are and they helped me through this situation and big middle fingers to those who just made my days ruined with their insensitive comments and their arrogance or even couldn't bother to just be there as a friend. Miracle miracle I'm alive and still haven't lost my ability to help and comfort the others who are in need. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU